I found her very different from other girls. Like really
different. In a college known for its prestigious beauties she stood out. She
never wore a pony tail, nor had colors on her hair. Her eyes never had kajal or eye
liner to enhance their charm. She never painted her lips pink or red, nor did
she have nail paints, infact she never grew nails. Her dresses were not colorful.
Nor she wore tight fit pink salwars., skirts and tops. She preferred dull
shades of grey, black maroon that too men’s Kurtas. Oh yeh how can I forget she
never blow dried or straightened or smoothened her hair. Well she did not have
long curls. It was neither typical boy cut. It was in between somewhere. But
still I found her girlish than those red haired short skirt types. Her smile
was from her heart. She never had fake accents or stories. She never bothered
about others. And the best part was that she was least affected by others
around her. She had her set of friends, mostly guys. The first time I saw her
was when she performed for college mime competition. She was active in
everything, politics, arts, college culturals, and social activities. Sometimes
I felt she was from another planet altogether. I used to eavesdrop to what she
talked in the canteen. Her ideas were very different. She was far ahead in time .Sometimes I found her sitting on the stone bench reading books(during class hours) which I could
never understand. She used to be the last one to leave college, that too in her
Black Bullet. The entire collge used to stare at her wierdly when she rode it. The sound of her Bullet vibrated in the campus. Every one used to call her the girl with the Black Bullet. That became her identity. She was an epic herself. I started watching her. One day during
the usual canteen visit she came to me and offered me a tea. She knew everything
about me. She said she had noticed me looking at her. Inspite of not being her
type, she made me a part of her set of friends. Sometimes I really felt out
of place but the only thing that connected me to her gang was my music, my
guitar.
On the day of our fare well, I could no longer keep it to
myself. I proposed to her.
She laughed- her typical reaction, and asif she was expecting this Then she made me sit and listen to her asif I
was a child. She knew I belonged to a very conservative family. She said no straight
on my face. She asked whether I had thought of how my parents would react when
they came to know that their son had fallen in love with a girl who ride bikes, wears loose kurtas and shirts and has no trait of a typical “bahu”. She
said this will never work out. She was very confident and had clear idea of
what she was saying. She continued “even if your parents agree the society won’t
let them accept me. I can’t cook for you, nor can I take care of the house hold
works. I love kids, but only when they are someone else’s. I am not saying that
I don’t want to get married, that doesn’t mean I will get married either. I
have lot of dreams to accomplish. I want to bring about a changes in the
society. While you think I must take care of your parents, raise your kids I want
to take care of lot of parents and kids who are out there longing for a company”.
She raised and left never looking back.
Now almost after 30 yearsof leading an NRI life what
reminded me of her was the article I read about her in the newspaper. It was an
interview. She is now proudly taking care of not just one but 50 kids. She runs
an orphanage. The photograph had her and the kids happily smiling and in the back ground stands her Black Bullet, happily un-married. She has
achieved what she dreamt. She was still single and a mother of 50 kids. While
me, I got married to a typical “bahu”who is very keen on her IT job. Because of
her pressure I got settled in the US. Had one son, who speaks only American
English. While my parents are back in India all alone. Now when I look back I feel
“she was much more girlish and homely than any of those girls. Only I did not
have the guts to say that I will convince my parents and get married to her. I
too was in fear whether I could actually accept someone like her. I felt we all
live for the society. Society set norms for everyone. Our views are so
preconceived. A woman who rides bikes, who cuts her hair short, who wears
kurtas are considered feminist, rebel. Only when you get close you know that they
are the real woman. Whose dreams are much closer to reality, whose desires have
no limit, and they are the ones who push themselves beyond what even a man can
even image. The girl with the Black Bullet- she can be the one.